{MIND TRAVELS}

{prologue}

Name: Danix
Age: A number
Location: Muntinlupa, Phils.
Hobbies: reading, writing, sleeping, eating, walking, dreaming.
Loves: music, books, poetry, sleep, food, rain, dogs.
Hates: lizards, bad manners, stress, noise, closed-mindedness.
Quotable Quote: Second star to the right... and straight on til morning.

{wishlist}

money
travel to europe
the most complete library in the world
world peace
happy college life

{fellows}

{articulate}

{prequel}

[Sei] "Waste of time" movie

[Cinque] Favorite Film -- Moulin Rouge

[Quattro] Farewell Letter

[Tre] Questions

Hum Hum!

[Due] HOMEwork

The Truth of Slumber

Hello

Tribute

Reader's Digest

{bygone}

June 2006[x] July 2006[x] September 2006[x] October 2006[x] February 2007[x]

{credits}

Afianne
Blogskins.com
Darkwaif
Moargh.de
Funeral Monster
Elizabeth the painter
Juvenile Casualty

Foto Decadent
Imageshack

{ [Quattro] Farewell Letter }

To Whom It May Concern:

I'm going to die. Nothing much I can do.

So I'll tell all of you whom I love what I most wanted to say, but I feel that I'll fail even at that. It's all apologies, because I feel that there is no use in trying to hold on to the pain. There's no use in trying to tell you what you did wrong, how I dislike you, how you've hurt me.

To Mom and Dad - I love both of you so much and I could never have done it without you. I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused, for all my faults. I haven't been the perfect daughter, far from it. But please know that I've realized that I believe what you said, that my family will always be there, ALWAYS. You've taught me so much, given me so much that I feel words typed or written won't be able to express my gratitude. I can't be silly, I can't try to be funny. I'm sorry. I love both of you infinitely. Please remember the good times. Please. Dad, mom, I can't say it enough: I love you. For everything you've said and done for me.

To kuya - We haven't talked in a while. I haven't seen you in the longest time. For most of my life, you weren't around. I admit that often, I've forgotten that I have a brother. But each time you call and ask me how I am, I'm happy. I love you and ate Kay. And Isabel and Nathan. I hope they grow up to be fine-looking people with equally beautiful hearts.

To ate - Ate, anong masasabi ko? Maraming salamat. Thank you so much, Thank you. You've been like a mother to me. I know you've always thought of me, you only think of what's good for me. So thank you. I appreciate it. I love you so much.

To Carlie - You're the little sister I should have had. Once again, I feel horrible that I am at a loss for words. I'm grappling, thinking of what I can say, in hopes that I won't repeat myself. But you already know how I feel. I love you, friend. You're going to be great someday, because you're the kind of person who deserves only the best of everything, because you're the best friend I only regret to leave. I'll be right there if you need a friend. I promise.

To Maw - I feel truly sorry that it had to turn out the way it did. I still consider you one of the best friends I have ever had. No matter what, that won't change. I really do love you, and I hate it that you doubt that. One day, you're going to be onstage, being what you most wanted to be. I wish I could crack a joke, or talk about fond memories, but I'm losing them fast. All I can say is, you'll make it. You will. And I'm leaving without any anger towards you, no matter what you feel about me now. I apologize for being weak and for being unable to think of what I was doing. I apologize. One day, maybe I can say sorry to you in person and then we can have on of those great conversations, just like before. I loved every moment we hung out. Each and every moment. Thank you for that.

To Nina - I wish I could stick around to see you become successful and everything you dreamed to be. How I wish. You're one of those rare gems that I happened to just find out of pure luck. And I will never let go. Once again, I love you, dear. You've been there for me no matter what. Our friendship is beautiful, and it won't end. I apologize for being such a burden sometimes, I didn't want to be that to you, never. I'll be giving you a warm embrace when you feel down. But don't ever ever give up.

To Mayenne - Just the thought of leaving you makes me even more sad than I already am. Go get them, Mai. You can do it. I am also unable to express my gratitude properly, but no matter what, you'll be the kind of friend I'll never forget. We've known each other for quite a long time, and you never fail to amaze me with how kind you are. Please don't change. I love you. Take care.

To Magoo - Hello, there. What can I say? It's my time to go. Please pray for me, please pray that I get there. I'll be praying for you. I am most certain that you'll become one of the greatest people the world will ever know. Never stop believing, never stop trying, never stop proving them wrong. I'll be there evry step of the way. Please hold on when things get tough. I'll see you soon, my good friend.

To Tina - You're someone I never thought I'd be friends with. Such a pleasant surprise, you are. But please, move on after this. You're one of those people who should never be broken. You're one of the kindest souls I've ever met, and I love you truly for that. I'll be giving you big hugs when you're down, and I'll be around, I assure you. Now, go and become a writer, anything you want to be. And I'll be there, cheering you on.

To Krizia - We both made mistakes. But we need to move forward. I thank you now for the good times we had, no matter how far away they are now. I'll still remember you as that friend who was generous and patient and honest. Please go on and become what you want to be, become the person you know you can become. I know you can do it.

To The Gang - Hey, guys. Well, this is it! Wish me luck. Thank you for being such a blast. The first group of friends I've ever had. You never judged, you were never mean. At all. I will miss you all thoroughly. I love you all and wish you all the best.

And to everyone else who mean so much to me: All my relatives and friends, thank you. I can never repay all of you. In some way, each of you has had a hand in the way I have become the person that I am today. To all whom I've done much wrong: I am sorry. I never meant the harsh words, the moments of dreaded silence, the misunderstandings, the betrayals, the distance, the alienation. All that, I truly regret. Know that they make me sad, and I wish only that you all forgive me.

I kindly request that I may be cremated. To whomever will end up with my ashes: Please throw them to the ocean. Please keep my papers, my poetry. That's all. Thank you. So, I'll be seeing all of you again soon.

Goodbye,
Danix

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